what a mess

Updating & venting..

 Now that my seasonal job is over with I’m going to start studying to take my GED. My plan after passing that is to look into enrolling in school to become a Vet Tech. I think this is the most solid my plans have ever been I just hope I’m able to actually do it. With this family nothing ever goes right or as planned so I try not to get my hopes up too much about anything anymore but I’m relieved and excited to finally have a plan! It was Vet Tech or something that involved computers because animals and technology are the things I love most. I would probably make more money going into computers, as my mom reminded me haha, but I’m more passionate about animals and in the end I want a job that is going to make me happy. Nothing makes me happier than being around animals.

 Also my sister has been in and out of the hospital for the last week. She started having excruciating pains in her left side and so her boyfriend rushed her to the hospital where they did a few tests on her and gave her one diagnosis before coming back in and saying “Sorry, we got it wrong.” and diagnosed her with something completely different. They said they “thought” she had either kidney stones or a kidney infection and sent her home with some pain meds and said if it didn’t get better or got worse to go back to the ER. It, of course, did get worse. She went to another hospital and they flat out told her there was nothing wrong with her and they didn’t know why she was in pain and then sent her home. I’m seriously to the point where I want to go kick her doctors ass. How in the hell they thought it was okay to just send her home when she’s doubled over in pain I’ll never know but it’s NOT okay! Poor thing is at home laying in bed, in pain. We are considering taking her to a third hospital but she’s so discouraged by the other hospital she doesn’t want to go. I don’t blame her but the whole family is really worried this is something really serious. At first we thought maybe it was appendicitis but I think they would have figured that out pretty easy. Then we thought maybe it was an ectopic pregnancy but again wouldn’t they have picked up on that too, it’s not that uncommon that they wouldn’t check for that. At least I hope not. I’m so worried something bad is going on inside of her and no one is catching it but none of us know what to do.

 I’m determined to make 2012 a better and more productive year than the last 5 or so but it’s already testing me. I had a ton of shit to get done these last few days but since my sister has been sick we’ve had my niece and nephew here everyday since New Years Eve and everything’s just kinda been put on hold. She’s back home now, though not any better, and the kids are back home for the night. If we don’t end having to go get them tomorrow I might actually accomplish something. I’m so tired and stressed. Did I also mention that EVERYONE in my family is sick? Yep and I just caught it. Started feeling like shit last night and woke up this morning feeling like I’d been hit by a semi. Hey, life can only get better from here right?! I mean seriously because I don’t think we can handle anymore bad around here.